Today, I selfishly bombarded him with texts, and he ignored every single one of them and replied on FB instead. Smart guy lol. But whatever it is, I've said all the things I've never been able to say before. My innermost feelings, the random observations on the way to work that I thought were funny but really trivial, the self-talk that often happens in my head and nowhere else. Should have thrown in one more "Cat got your tongue? I mean, Breakup got your tongue?" Haha. Darn it.
This is for me. I don't know why I feel like I need it, but I really want to be able to go through all the varying moods and forgive myself as soon as possible. The last time it wasn't even really a relationship yet it had taken me so long to even realize the reason why I continued to be so affected by him, so haunted, was simply because... even after so many years I could not, could not forgive myself.
Day 4 aww yeah! Now I also have to go reflect on the training today and moan about the 10,000 volley shots we're supposed to do in 7 weeks. Yes, 10 thousand.
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Letting Go #4: Today, I let go of my filter. Aww yeah!
This is for me. I don't know why I feel like I need it, but I really want to be able to go through all the varying moods and forgive myself as soon as possible. The last time it wasn't even really a relationship yet it had taken me so long to even realize the reason why I continued to be so affected by him, so haunted, was simply because... even after so many years I could not, could not forgive myself.
Day 4 aww yeah! Now I also have to go reflect on the training today and moan about the 10,000 volley shots we're supposed to do in 7 weeks. Yes, 10 thousand.
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Letting Go #4: Today, I let go of my filter. Aww yeah!
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